Tuesday, June 26, 2012
i'm yours, faithfully...
"having
a gf or bf is not love, but having someone whom even if you hurt them
to the most extreme, they will still hold your hand and say "I WAS, I AM
and I WILL ALWAYS BE YOURS..."
saw this is facebook just now. hmm. will i have someone like that to hold my hand? =(
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4:49 PM
Sunday, June 17, 2012
不行哦？
我也想任性，不能吗？
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6:41 PM
self defence
haiz... stress out again.
after a long day at library, i felt so discouraged.
back to room, sit in front of desk, i on my laptop to watch anime.
dont know is it because of the story or i'm already stress out, i guess is the second one... i felt so sad, and life is so meaningless...
to chase a dream, i took up the hard path.
why would i do that to torture myself? to chase my dream?
i dont know...
i'm nt sure what i want for myself anymore.
looking at my phone, i wanted to have someone to comfort me. anyone.
n so i texted some of them. but i guess my pride is so high that i scared to cry in front of them. in the end, after hang up the phone, i cried.
i was desparately wanted to be comforted, a hug... but none was received.
its so funny... i cried n cried. and i realized, no one is gonna come and save me.
so, instead, i find ways to make myself better, like i always do...
i watched family outing. i laughed so hard that my jaw hurts. i laugh so hard that all the tears were sucked back. for one hour, i just let myself laugh. and i'm better.
washed my face and fight for my dream continues...
i don know what will i feel, when i finally did it...
but deep deep down, i just want a person to be there for me. someone i love and love me back. maybe this is my real dream, accountant is just something i wanted to get my mind off the real one. 'cause, i know i wont realize the real one...
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2:38 AM
