Saturday, May 14, 2011
guilt...
i cant change what had been done...
i just wished, i can make things right in the future and do the right thing.
look back at the the past, i did so many stupid things... haha... one worse than another...
why i nvr learn my mistake.
indeed, i should be punished for my wrong doing.....
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12:57 AM
Friday, May 13, 2011
Random
well... people blog about their life, to share something they happy about.
but, i always blog otherwise.
you know why i like house? he's smart. good looking(in a way), but most of the time he is miserable. i always felt pity for him. he is always lonely... sometimes, i tried not to watch house when i need to forget im lonely. coz when i watch it, it reminds me of that.
i used to think, ppl that blog are pathetic, coz they have to put it online to share. as if they got no firends in real life but only in virtual world. but.... of coz, there are people who treat it as dairy and share with others....
do you people still remember how we share our thoughts when there is no fb or blog? we tell our fren... what if, we don have frens to talk to? now... i don have answer for that. if me i would probably just distract myself. make myself so tired tt i don think of anything. and whenever i think back to those times. i felt pathetic.
and, when u found a love one in your life. everything changes.... life full of colours. you think of your future with him. and you two talk about how you guys' dream house would be. you two discussed how many children should you all have. and whether to have pets. you shares your life stories with him and he shares his. you wait for his email and when you saw his name in your inbox you felt warmth in your heart. he's your best friend and your lover. you're deeply in love... and no matter how far you were separated, your hearts and his hearts were so close so close. that you can imagine he is actually sitting beside you, telling you stories about his life.
but something went wrong.... you screwed up. and it didnt went well. you hurt him... and you hurt yourself. now you regretted. you wanna make things straight... but he doesnt trust you anymore....
i guess... god doesnt want me to have a long happy life. punished me for not being a good girl...
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