Monday, June 27, 2011
sobs
i don like the person im becoming into.
i want to just trust people easily.
i don wanna get hurt anymore.
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11:21 AM
another day
Fall sick recently... probably i didnt take care of myself well. haha...
eating cereal with milk, sitting in front of lappie. spelling out my life in a blog.
sometimes, i really felt like my surrounding is totally a stranger to me. it makes me wonder why am i here. what about enjoying life?
always review my decision. is it correct? is this what you want?
and i will start to think, what more can you lose? hahaha... i come to this life empty handed. no matter how much i lose or gain, i will still go back with empty handed. so why not try it out? but i think my idea too extreme. haha... now, i only can apply the chinese proverb: 得过且过.
hmmm...
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11:09 AM
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
hmm...
"will i ever find the one i love again" this is the question popped into my mind yesterday after a long conversation with my darling.
when comes to relationship, i cant help but to think back to my first love. everyone will do the same, isnt it? or probably just me. >.<
my first love, to me, its perfect. even we are young, but everything is simple happiness. no need to be fairly rich, no need to own car. just him alone will make me happy. this is what i always pictured my love would be. pure and simple.
i guess, now, its hard to find the pure and simple happiness.
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12:04 PM
Monday, June 20, 2011
Deleting
For a long long of time, you were top in my list.
Always want to keep you near me, love you with all my heart.
but now, should i still keep you on, or should i just let go...
it really hurts me so much, it really breaks my heart when the thought of removing you come into my mind. i guess, it's time to slowly let you go... hope i'm not making more mistakes than i already did.
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11:17 PM
Sunday, June 19, 2011
Sunless sunday
yesterday night had a nightmare.
Woke up in the middle of night, near cry.
i don like nightmare. it scares me...
this morning woke up. a day of my own.
let's see; i should be studying for my next week paper. probly watch a few episode of fringe. oh ya, badminton with housemate n frens. honestly, i prefer jog. it requires no skill. haha... i tried to learn swimming these day. 'cause my condo here got swimming pool. and everytime i past by there i always feel like swimming in that pool. and i like the smell of the water. =) just like i like the smell of rain. ^^
and when i googled "sunless day", i found this:
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11:31 AM
Thursday, June 16, 2011
My partners
So.... i have been at kl for around 1 month. it's kinda hard to adapt to it at first, as i don hav anyone i know of here with me, except my housemate.
So, i decided to get myself some company. something that would not make me feel alone in the apartment. and so, i bought them.
they are so so cute. sleep with four legs pointed upwards. both of them are so fluffy and furry. i have to quote this: "they are so fluffy that im gonna die" from the cute little girl from Despicable Me.
life's hard.... i just need to be strong for it. hope everything back to normal when holiday ends...
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10:07 PM
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
My baby dolls
it's hard to find your loved one in your life. it's even harder to find your best friend.
As for me, i have found mine. im glad i have them. somehow somewhat they played a very important part in my life. hard time good time fun time.
tho now we seldom meet up. but we understand each other.
Girls, love y'all~!
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2:54 PM
Monday, June 13, 2011
messed up life of mine
who will understand how i felt now.
i guess, only the two little hamsters of mine know.
this is your retribution.
who ask you to make that decision.
who ask you to cari pasal.
who ask you to mess it up.
who ask you to choose this path instead of others.
who ask you to be so easily influenced.
who ask you to be so soft hearted.
who ask you to be so undetermined.
everything everything you have in your life now, is the cause of your own decision.
who can you blame?
no one, but yourself.
what to do, SUCK IT UP!
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12:06 PM
Friday, June 3, 2011
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind
if there were this technology, where you can choose to erase certain memories of yours, would you do that? i guess i would not have.
if my memory were to be erased, meaning, i will have to go through all the memories once before everything was to be erased. and i don bear to erase it. but it would be too late. sweet memories, sad memories. those memories, made me who i am. if its to be erased, it's like my life, was a waste afterall...
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4:41 PM
