Spelling out my life

女人的梦想

2012-02-09T11:35:00.002+08:00

每个女生心里都希望能拥有一段刻苦民心浪漫的爱情吧。
拥有那位浪漫且懂我心的人。
对你做出浪漫的事。让你猜不透他下一步。每每给你惊喜。
我想，每个人都会想把自己的爱情录成video吧。

哈哈哈。
我看，我不会那么幸福。我是旁边的路人，看着他们的爱情影片。

prayers

2012-01-30T01:29:00.003+08:00

please god, give me strength to sleep without regrets, wake up without disappointment.

please guide me through darkness and give me lights in my future days.

please god, give me hint for mistake i will take, and give me power to embrace the mistake i had done.

please god, i do not beg for forgiveness, but guide me through, so i can ease the pain...

please god, i just want a simple love life. just enough to make me happy. nothing more nothing less.

please god...

#swear 2

2012-01-30T01:26:00.002+08:00

I will never voice out my feeling.
I will try to be even stronger.
I will live up to my mistakes and my promises.
I will not easily give up.
I will not give up!

be strong, TYY! be strong...

Randomness

2012-01-05T12:01:00.004+08:00

i love music, like i love food.
tho, food more. hahaha...

i like to study with music on. but half of the time, i'll get carried away, and sing along with the song. haha...

sometimes i like noisy song, and sometime, i just like instrumental music. guitar, for example.

talk about guitar... i possessed one. now i rarely play it. didnt bring it up with me to uni. i really very envy those people that can play it well. jason mraz, taylor swift are some of my favourite artist. they are so cool. sing and play guitar at the same time is so hard. while, probably, i cant syn properly. hahaha. mouth and hand movement.

looking at them, really makes me feel small. THEY LIVE THEIR LIVES. they achieved their dreams. we always say we want to do this, want to do that. but when it really comes to the DOING part, we always have excuse. i guess, i cant escape from the group. haha...

i always say i was being tied down here. doesnt really open up and enjoy much. always dream of the girl i use to be. that crazy girl back in secondary school. what change me? people said i always linger the past. always look back. but i cant help but think, what change me, to the person i am today. no fun, no craziness. haha. no wonder they said, when people grow old, mature, they build a cage around them and do not, anymore, dream big. i think it happened to me.

i want to fly. i want to be crazy. i want my life not to be routine. but random.

i will try say YES to everything. i don want to be HEM, from who moved my cheese. i want to be HAW.

how?

2011-12-27T18:30:00.001+08:00

i don't know how to reject a guy without hurting him. i really don't want to hurt him. looking at him sad and emo, i felt so bad. is like im turning into evil monster. well, i guess there's really nothing can be done but to let time pass. i hope we'll still friend.

YET, sick A.G.A.I.N...

2011-11-15T09:31:00.002+08:00

the number of visits with doctors this year, really countless. Its not i didn't take care of myself well... it's just, *sigh*... FINE... i didn't take care of myself... by the end of this year i review myself, there should be a lot of red markings every month. i'm really am trying hard to take care of ME by MYSELF! resolution of next year....

回忆

2011-11-11T15:21:00.002+08:00

你还好吗好久不见
後来的你喜欢了谁
现在的你一样帅气
至於爱情是个回忆

在不同的城市努力
偶尔也会想想你
这样的我那样的你
要很久才相聚
我们都没说那遥远的曾经
我们也没提故事的原因
青春的回忆像一片云
没法子抓在手里
我们的眼泪在复习着过去
我们的微笑是彼此的氧气
回忆是封挂号信

爱是什麽什麽人懂
所以别难过
心还痛吗请忘了吧
所谓幸福是个童话
後来的我一切随意
所以没关系

午後的闷热窗外的一场大雨
让我们看见了以前的自己
把时光倒转回那一季
那年的梦他乡的你

Let go

2011-11-07T00:06:00.001+08:00

i really missed you... and i really loved you. from the bottom of my heart. but, i know... we cant be together anymore. we cant go back to the old times. like before.
they said the best thing ever happened to you is to marry your best friend. i guess i cant get that kind of happiness anymore. unless im lesbian. hmm..
i wish you all the best in finding your new cheese. and i hope i can find my new cheese too. im going to slowly letting you go. im going to let you go....

Swear #1

2011-11-07T00:01:00.002+08:00

i swear to god. i'll never do long distance relationship. NEVER. its so tiring and frustrated and fucked up. i hate it. i hate the fact that we arent able to hug each other when im sad, when you're sad. i hate the fact that i cant hold your hand and tell you how pretty the scene im looking at right now. i hate the fucking fact that i need you so much, to be by my side and you cant. and it's killing me from inside out.
no! i'll kill myself if i did that again.

Far far away - Home

2011-11-03T09:26:00.001+08:00

its a windy rainy morning. one more day to go before i can hop on a bus and head back home.
I cant recall when is the last time i step foot on my house doorway. 2 months? 3 months? or more.
After i took up ACCA the longest i stayed at home would be 3 days or 4. I missed home. I missed holiday. Eventhough i got holiday, my holiday always full of class. and i never get the chance to sneak back home and slack at home. lying on sofa, flip through channels. :(
but i guess im lucky. at least my home is reachable. its within my money power and geographical means.
Cant wait...

Truth

2011-11-03T00:17:00.001+08:00

don fall in love with me, for i will hurt you deep.
don put hope on me, for i will crush it mean.
don put me in your future, for i will runaway from it.
im not a girl that would give you happiness, nor a girl that follow you obediently.
please stay away from me.
but if as friend, i will help you and love you in everyway.

:'(

2011-11-01T16:11:00.000+08:00

There's things I know I should have mentioned sooner
But I didn't know how

I'm sorry I lost you

I never thought that this could come between us
I know its water and bridges now...

I will not give up

2011-10-13T15:45:00.000+08:00

when you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place.

kite and string

2011-10-13T15:35:00.002+08:00

im turning into kite. got string pulling me when i want to fly high.

i don like to be bound. no, i HATE to be bound.

but in this life, there will certainly be something to tie you down, hold u back, don let you fly freely and YET, because of these restrictions, you tend to fly high cause you wan to break lose, thinking, if you fight it, you will break it. in the end, it will counter back your action, and you are back to square one.

actually, there were once exist a string that i willing to let it tie down. but, i myself cut it. and see what i got myself into. a mess. well done, TYY.

sin

2011-10-03T01:37:00.000+08:00

i'm a murderer...

=']

2011-09-22T15:57:00.003+08:00

so long didn't listen to your voice d.

saw ur contact in my list. there were times where i really feel like calling you. looking at your name. i stopped. just suck in all the words. keep them in my heart.

will my mr right really will appear. or its just a fairy tale that i shouldn't dream of.

watching at those drama, i really wish i can experience those kind of love story...

now... i just want to be on my own. wait till someone melt my heart.

charge forward

2011-09-22T15:55:00.001+08:00

scared of the future... but i won't stop moving.

i just pray that the path ahead would not be any harder...

and i will not give up. i will keep moving, until i achieve what i dream of.

i know it's hard. just hope luck is on my side.

Who says

2011-09-22T15:51:00.002+08:00

Who says i cannot live by myself.

i like the way i am now. being alone, enjoying every small thing. simple. no complicated things.

so even if it means i will be alone, i don't mind. i can manage. or i think i can.

god, please help me. guide me this time.

sobs

2011-06-27T11:21:00.001+08:00

i don like the person im becoming into.

i want to just trust people easily.

i don wanna get hurt anymore.

another day

2011-06-27T11:09:00.002+08:00

Fall sick recently... probably i didnt take care of myself well. haha...

eating cereal with milk, sitting in front of lappie. spelling out my life in a blog.
sometimes, i really felt like my surrounding is totally a stranger to me. it makes me wonder why am i here. what about enjoying life?
always review my decision. is it correct? is this what you want?
and i will start to think, what more can you lose? hahaha... i come to this life empty handed. no matter how much i lose or gain, i will still go back with empty handed. so why not try it out? but i think my idea too extreme. haha... now, i only can apply the chinese proverb: 得过且过.
hmmm...

hmm...

2011-06-22T12:04:00.003+08:00

"will i ever find the one i love again" this is the question popped into my mind yesterday after a long conversation with my darling.
when comes to relationship, i cant help but to think back to my first love. everyone will do the same, isnt it? or probably just me. >.<
my first love, to me, its perfect. even we are young, but everything is simple happiness. no need to be fairly rich, no need to own car. just him alone will make me happy. this is what i always pictured my love would be. pure and simple.
i guess, now, its hard to find the pure and simple happiness.

Deleting

2011-06-20T23:17:00.002+08:00

For a long long of time, you were top in my list.
Always want to keep you near me, love you with all my heart.
but now, should i still keep you on, or should i just let go...
it really hurts me so much, it really breaks my heart when the thought of removing you come into my mind. i guess, it's time to slowly let you go... hope i'm not making more mistakes than i already did.

Sunless sunday

2011-06-19T11:31:00.003+08:00

yesterday night had a nightmare.
Woke up in the middle of night, near cry.
i don like nightmare. it scares me...

this morning woke up. a day of my own.
let's see; i should be studying for my next week paper. probly watch a few episode of fringe. oh ya, badminton with housemate n frens. honestly, i prefer jog. it requires no skill. haha... i tried to learn swimming these day. 'cause my condo here got swimming pool. and everytime i past by there i always feel like swimming in that pool. and i like the smell of the water. =) just like i like the smell of rain. ^^

and when i googled "sunless day", i found this:

My partners

2011-06-16T22:07:00.003+08:00

So.... i have been at kl for around 1 month. it's kinda hard to adapt to it at first, as i don hav anyone i know of here with me, except my housemate.

So, i decided to get myself some company. something that would not make me feel alone in the apartment. and so, i bought them.

they are so so cute. sleep with four legs pointed upwards. both of them are so fluffy and furry. i have to quote this: "they are so fluffy that im gonna die" from the cute little girl from Despicable Me.

life's hard.... i just need to be strong for it. hope everything back to normal when holiday ends...

My baby dolls

2011-06-15T14:54:00.001+08:00

it's hard to find your loved one in your life. it's even harder to find your best friend.
As for me, i have found mine. im glad i have them. somehow somewhat they played a very important part in my life. hard time good time fun time.
tho now we seldom meet up. but we understand each other.
Girls, love y'all~!

messed up life of mine

2011-06-13T12:06:00.002+08:00

who will understand how i felt now.
i guess, only the two little hamsters of mine know.

this is your retribution.
who ask you to make that decision.
who ask you to cari pasal.
who ask you to mess it up.
who ask you to choose this path instead of others.
who ask you to be so easily influenced.
who ask you to be so soft hearted.
who ask you to be so undetermined.

everything everything you have in your life now, is the cause of your own decision.
who can you blame?
no one, but yourself.
what to do, SUCK IT UP!

Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind

2011-06-03T16:41:00.004+08:00

if there were this technology, where you can choose to erase certain memories of yours, would you do that? i guess i would not have.

if my memory were to be erased, meaning, i will have to go through all the memories once before everything was to be erased. and i don bear to erase it. but it would be too late. sweet memories, sad memories. those memories, made me who i am. if its to be erased, it's like my life, was a waste afterall...

guilt...

2011-05-14T00:57:00.003+08:00

i cant change what had been done...

i just wished, i can make things right in the future and do the right thing.

look back at the the past, i did so many stupid things... haha... one worse than another...
why i nvr learn my mistake.

indeed, i should be punished for my wrong doing.....

Random

2011-05-13T00:07:00.000+08:00

well... people blog about their life, to share something they happy about.

but, i always blog otherwise.

you know why i like house? he's smart. good looking(in a way), but most of the time he is miserable. i always felt pity for him. he is always lonely... sometimes, i tried not to watch house when i need to forget im lonely. coz when i watch it, it reminds me of that.

i used to think, ppl that blog are pathetic, coz they have to put it online to share. as if they got no firends in real life but only in virtual world. but.... of coz, there are people who treat it as dairy and share with others....

do you people still remember how we share our thoughts when there is no fb or blog? we tell our fren... what if, we don have frens to talk to? now... i don have answer for that. if me i would probably just distract myself. make myself so tired tt i don think of anything. and whenever i think back to those times. i felt pathetic.

and, when u found a love one in your life. everything changes.... life full of colours. you think of your future with him. and you two talk about how you guys' dream house would be. you two discussed how many children should you all have. and whether to have pets. you shares your life stories with him and he shares his. you wait for his email and when you saw his name in your inbox you felt warmth in your heart. he's your best friend and your lover. you're deeply in love... and no matter how far you were separated, your hearts and his hearts were so close so close. that you can imagine he is actually sitting beside you, telling you stories about his life.

but something went wrong.... you screwed up. and it didnt went well. you hurt him... and you hurt yourself. now you regretted. you wanna make things straight... but he doesnt trust you anymore....

i guess... god doesnt want me to have a long happy life. punished me for not being a good girl...

POV

2011-03-09T15:35:00.001+08:00

we are so small.

To us, our problem is big.

but to some ppl, our problem is just tiny.

we OBSESS with small problems, make it big, make it fill us, but when u see from the viewpoint of the world, OUR PROBLEMs are TINY!

you

2010-11-02T12:26:00.001+08:00

cant take my mind off u, but for now, i just temporary put u in middle brain 1st. needed the front brain for thinking dynamic. =)

FOOTball!

2010-10-31T23:00:00.004+08:00

this hobby, have to thanks to my friend.
'cause he always tell me about football...
Show me those football videos.
Sing his team punya cheers..
Teach me about football stuffs...
apart from that, those footballer really handsome la....
so, in the end i also gan jiong with him when his team is losing.

first time thinks that football can be this fun. HAHAHA...

p.s: i don play... hehe. i just watch. ^^

yy

Isn't so bad afterall

2010-10-30T21:09:00.003+08:00

So.... have been dwelling in the past for the past few months.
Wasted alot of time, i know.
Still, I got my right to feel sad. I got the right to feel bad.
ok, maybe i dont deserved to feel down.
Afterall, this is what I choose to.
(which i don not know why i would at the first place. maybe coz i doesnt want to see my parents worried for the tuition fee and all.*sigh* it's hard to be a good daughter when come to this kind of stuff. you dont know u should follow your heart or follow theirs.)

Ok, maybe the food here very suckie (VERY!)... maybe the environment here not as nice as there. (SUPER NOT!)... maybe the lecturer here is not up to standard... maybe the course isnt something i truly like... maybe i deserve a better surrounding (which i meant if i choose what i really really want at the first place.)... BUT BUT, i found some cool friends here that sort of cheers me up despite the all the others that makes me feel unfair.

AND AND, this isnt the end of life... AND AND AND, i got my perfect shoes that always keep me comfy no matter how bad the situation seems to be. =)

you know i always miss you....
-yy-

2010-10-17T18:17:00.003+08:00

very good.
i feel like shit now.
one mistake linked to another.
very good, every single thing now i feel regret.

don ever ask me about my study or what i wanna do.
just leave me rot.
Eff!

Hatred

2010-10-17T17:30:00.001+08:00

I hate here!
I hate my study!
I hate my hall!
I hate IT!!!!

This is the way

2010-10-08T13:19:00.001+08:00

"rational people think at marginal"
means that
ignore sunk cost!!!

Questions

2010-10-08T01:08:00.005+08:00

I'm not myself lately.
Too many questions appeared in my head.
Too lost to make decision.
Tuck myself in study too much that I feel like, why...

I am sick of some perspex of my life.
Some that even myself also cant explain.

Maybe when you made the wrong decision, took the wrong path, which are all one way path...
You will continue to make more wrong decisions, more wrong choices.
There will be no turning back.
When you make effort to change it back, but it turns out to be otherwise.
And in the end you'll be directed to another ending which deviate so so much from your original plan.
You're constantly live with regret for the rest of your life.
And constantly talk about IF.
But non of this is going to change your outcome.

What make me realized is that.
No matter how hard you work, or how many effort you put into one thing.
What people notice, what people judge, will always be the outcome.
There will not be a person that praised your hard working, nor people will remember you for your great effort. Unless, UNLESS, your effort made great changes, made great achievement.
This is life. This is REALITY.
So, eventhough you put in 199% of effort and the outcome is lousy. Your 199% of effort will instantly become ZERO...

Calming song

2010-10-08T01:07:00.001+08:00

u asked me why I love to listen to the song, sky chord.

ermmm... coz I always feel calm after listen to that song.

I'll imagine u played to me. then I'll feel calm. touchy touchy and sometimes will feel nose sour.

especially at night.

I'll never get bored with that song.

Realized....

2010-10-01T22:14:00.002+08:00

Working hard is just the path towards good result.
What we see eventually will be the result rather than how much effort have you put into it.
No one will ask how hard did you worked.
They will only comment on the outcome.

恋爱

2010-09-28T22:28:00.003+08:00

轰轰烈烈的爱情已经离我很远了。
取代的而是稳定，且时甜蜜时搞笑时疯狂的爱情。

我的他，时像我的好朋友时像我的爸爸，但最多时候他是我的依靠我的爱人。
虽然我们是远距离恋爱，在一起的时间简直是少之又少。
不过我们有我们自己的相处方式。
我们独立，但我们分享并给与自己的看法。
我们依赖彼此，但我们有自己的空间。
我们像朋友，但更像情人。
这就是我们。

看着我身旁的朋友，远距离恋爱好像是恋爱的禁忌，一个个有问题，然后分手。
从来不觉得恋爱能让一个人荒废学业，我道觉得它是个动力。
我也不觉得它能改变我的人格，我还是我，因为这才是当初他爱上我的原因。

他常说：每一次看到你就觉得自己又重新再一次地爱上你。
我常说：真开心我爱上的是你。

=(

2010-09-25T15:56:00.004+08:00

如果一开始就没有得到，也许我就不会那么难过。

如果一开始期望不那么高，也许就不会跌得那么痛。

Uni life

2010-09-25T11:35:00.001+08:00

How to define uni life?

A lot of activities?
A lot of study to do?
As long as it's enjoy?

How do you define uni life?

Sun Shine

2010-09-25T11:32:00.002+08:00

Owning the room to myself, I got this advantage. =D
I can open the curtain whenever I want.
I can sleep till as late as I want as long as I am satisfied.

Already used to being alone in my room. Tho sometimes really supremely quiet. but I like the quietness. =)

Decision

2010-09-25T11:28:00.002+08:00

When always come to deciding things, especially big one, I tends to think too much and in the end ended up all mixed up and undecided.

How I wish everything is just simple yes no task, and not those linked chain task.

Path

2010-09-20T23:15:00.004+08:00

What is the right path?
When people reached my age, this is the most frequent question asked by ownself.
If I do A, will it lead to what I expect to get, what I want?
Does B better than A?
Do I want A or B?
Which one is the right one?

I was given many paths.
But I wasnt ready to fight for what I really wanedt.
In the end, I was stuck in a place where I least wanted to be.
I was disappointed, I was angry, I hated it.

I was given chances.
But I let it slip away.

Sometimes in my mind, I will find myself think back.
Is the place or the course I really wanted?
But here, definitely, neither one was on the list.

But what to do?
I am here.
Forced to move forward and zipped away all the other dreams that I once had.

宅

2010-09-20T16:32:00.002+08:00

cham d...
I think i'm starting to become more and more geeky and nerdy edi... shit shit.
I can stay indoor for the whole day. =(
I think it's unhealthy.
Today i'm so gonna go jogging.
Need fresh air desperately.
*BREATH BREATH*!!! =D

Relax Day =)

2010-06-10T17:39:00.000+08:00

oh my...

I've been reading comic and reader digest and drinking green tea and eating choco for my whole day beside doing three invoices in the morning....

*COOL* hehe

Money

2010-06-03T13:47:00.002+08:00

We all have been brain washed, by repeated something over and over again.
Owning things is good. More money is good. More property is good. More commercialism is good.
More is good. More is good.
We repeated it - and have it repeated to us - over and over until nobody think otherwise.
Then we are so hungry of love that we find substitute from money.
We embrace material things and expecting some sort of hug back.
But it never works.
We can't substitute money for love or for gentleness or for tenderness or for a sense of comradeship.

Life

2010-05-26T16:34:00.001+08:00

So many people walk around with meaningless life.
They seem half-asleep, even when they're busy doing things they think are important.
This is because they're chasing the wrong things.
The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning.

You & Me

2010-05-11T16:08:00.000+08:00

I was his when i with him.
I am me when im not with him.
We got our own life, we live differently.
But we share stories, we encourage each other, consult each other.
In a way we dependent on one another, but we r independent on our own.
I belief him and he trust me.

We are friends, but also lover.

Countdown in 3 days

2010-05-10T15:16:00.001+08:00

I'm going to have my first time oversea tour in just 3days!
=)

but, not so excited as before.

bye bye NUS

2010-05-10T15:13:00.002+08:00

i have rejected NUS.
It's a tough decision.
I have always want to study there.
But, i cant force myself to study something which are not my interest just because that's my dream school.
i took the path less expected.

The future

2010-05-07T14:25:00.001+08:00

=) i have decided.

TAKAMINE guitaR!!!

2010-05-01T15:52:00.003+08:00

i love the way you play guitar. =)

Top Smells That Makes ME Happy ☺

2010-04-30T16:22:00.002+08:00

1. JY's scents
2. My blanket and pillow
3. Fresh air after rainfall
4. Nice FOOD!
5. Freshly mown grass
6. Specific Tea's fragrance
7. Coffee
8. Chocolate

HEHE XD

Our lives, start with msn

2010-04-29T17:09:00.003+08:00

After secondary school, i remembered.
Whilst other friends are busy with working and go college.
Everyday online is the same routine you and me will do.
small talk became a habit, when you and me both are online.
small talk grow into longer conversation.
Longer conversation on msn evolved into talking using phone.
At first, 30 min, once in awhile.
Then, 1hour, once in awhile.
Then everyday.
Even when i was in NS. Weekend will be our favourite time.

Now, though it's far away, i still can sense your presence around me. =)

Luv ♥

NUS or NTU

2010-04-27T14:42:00.002+08:00

Both are not my first choice.
HOW HOW HOW???

Should i accept?

Last day of his

2010-04-26T16:13:00.001+08:00

Today will be the last day for the colleague of mine.

The decision is within my expectation also.
Finally i wont be doing the job that suppose to be done by him.
Hope the new guy is way much much much better than him.

Why account?

2010-04-22T17:42:00.002+08:00

Why i choose account?

>I love numbers. especially, If they are in Money form.

>I have no idea how a business work, and i wanna learn

>I love the systematic and organized system of account.

>Account is basically the root of a business. So, if i learn account i will understand more about the nuts and bolts of business.

>Account is fun

Gosh, how to answer this question.

Here's how kids see love in action:

2010-04-22T14:13:00.002+08:00

Love is when my mummy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK. -Danny, 7-

Love is when Mummy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says that he is handsomer than Robert Redford. -Cris, 7-

Love is when Mummy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken. -Elaine,5-

Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk some more. -Emily,8-

I'm amazed by the view of love from a child's eye.

Lunch in office

2010-04-22T12:40:00.001+08:00

As long as the food is my favorite, i won feel terrible eating alone.

MUMMY, YOU'RE THE BEST!!!!!

One Piece

2010-04-22T11:21:00.002+08:00

看太多One Piece, 会不会也变得一样废?

Why didn't i do the same

2010-04-22T10:13:00.001+08:00

Its fun to look through other people's photos.
and realized they had fun somewhere out there and still having fun.

and thinks that, why didn't i do the same.

End of April?

2010-04-21T12:17:00.001+08:00

Just emailed NTU about the date of release for NTU application result.
They tell me, it would be end of April.
OK, its nearly the end of April now.
Pray Pray Pray.
Please let me have the course. Please...

I DON WAN TO FALL SICK!!!

2010-04-20T15:20:00.003+08:00

feel sick now... T.T

I cant fall sick...

The ice cream is waiting for me, in the freezer, to eat it...
In the cabinet there, the nice nice luxury choco waffle also waiting for me to consume them...
In the refrigerator, there is few kinder bueno....

aaaaa.... T.T

i cant fall sick.....

Are you...

2010-04-19T22:47:00.001+08:00

Are you as good as a male emperor penguin?

To Boss

2010-04-19T18:45:00.001+08:00

Never employed a computer idiot for your company.

Pissed off

2010-04-19T15:03:00.000+08:00

Fed up man.
HOW A GUY AGED 30+, LIVED LIKE THIS??!!!

oh man~

Cook, Wash, Sweep, Mop

2010-04-18T20:09:00.002+08:00

immediately reached home, from singapore, i was 'summoned' by my mom, to cook dinner.

T.T headache haven disappeared. no time to rest, cause my house 'Mahatir' is hungry.
SO, no time to rest. aaaggrr....

Chop, dice.........
Cook, spice.....
wash, dry...
sweep, mop, clean....

though tired, "these" had driven my headache away.
he-he.. (bitter laugh) X)

Driving out of country

2010-04-18T20:07:00.003+08:00

HEHE.. For the first time, i drive to singapore. =))

and, been having headache all the while, while driving.
neutralized my excitement. =.="

hate headache.

Hmmm...

2010-04-16T11:58:00.001+08:00

" The world is a book and those who do not travel read only one page. "
-St Augustine-

i'll have my second page on MAY. =)

Weekned!!!

2010-04-16T10:25:00.001+08:00

TOMORROW IS WEEKEND!!!

oh, i love weekend. It means temporary small holiday. =)

Brain

2010-04-16T09:47:00.002+08:00

I am amazed at the marvelous work of God.

We, in same species, in same community, same ecosystem.

BUT, the way a brain works in every single person is so unique and different.

Sometimes you found a person is so clever that, his way of thinking is so amazing.
Sometimes you wonder, why this guy cant think of that, it's simple.

Anyhow,
God creates every human to serve his own purpose.
Maybe i have given one too.

Independent traveller

2010-04-15T17:19:00.003+08:00

I have a dream. No, I have many. XP

just that, recently, this is being added to my dream list.

Be an independent traveler, a backpacker.
travel around the world.

There are alot of places I wanted to go.
I am not a fan for shopping.
I love nature, sports more. It sound more fun, looks more fun, and IT IS more fun than shopping.

Hope i can really make this dream comes true. =)

AND AND, of course, i will not travel alone without you. ♥ ^^

Clerk

2010-04-15T15:37:00.004+08:00

I have to admit, first, clerk is REALLY a boring job. >.<"

BUT, i did learn something.

like
> Go TNB terminate account have to bring company chop, or you will have to make another trip back to office again AND retake the number AND WAIT AGAIN.
> Go maybank to bank in slip; have to bring books or hp, or else will be bored.
> DATE is very important!
> No spelling mistake is allowed in ALL document.
> Neat is the KEY WORD.
> Filing is so normal that you did it everyday.
> Bring a book, a story book or a small magazine. YOU NEED IT. 8 hours facing the computer is also a boring thing to do when the computer do not have audio system
and the list go on...

Plan Plan Plan

2010-04-14T17:53:00.001+08:00

Planning for a trip ALONE is never a good thing to do. T.T

Office

2010-04-14T17:32:00.004+08:00

I've been working at this very office for like nearly two months.

Honestly did slacked, a lot. But i really got did my job, jobs. =)

I need to be working. To prevent my mind flying else where over the ocean.
I need to be busy. Its the only way.

I miss my memory stick.

Distance

2010-04-14T17:31:00.000+08:00

Who said distance is obstacle? Distance is NEVER an obstacle. Its just the excuse of those parted heart.

Stem cell theory

2009-07-26T20:13:00.001+08:00

当一个人没有优点时，就好像一个没有function的cell。

可是这就是个优点，就是stem cell，干细胞。

干细胞可以变成任何细胞，所以没有优点，就可以随意的塑造自己，maximum potential。

Love Story

2009-07-26T19:39:00.002+08:00

Everyone got their story to tell.
Just like every song.
Stories behind every single one.
"LOVE" isn't something fun to play with. It's not a game.
and, its not easy like people say.
Love isn't just a word. Its an action. A promise. A life.

40 Secrets about myself

2009-06-13T22:53:00.003+08:00

1.) Have you ever been asked out?
✚ Yup.

2.) Where was your default picture taken?
✚ kerry's metrojaya fitting room.

3.) What's your middle name?
✚ i'm a chinese.. do not have a middle name... my full name is Tee Yee Yeong. ^^

4.) Your current relationship status?
✚ in a relationship.

5.) Does your crush like you back?
✚ erm.. ya. he is now my boy friend.

6.) What is your current mood?
✚ so so.. 'cause holiday going to be over and he went back ler.

7.) What color of underwear are you wearing?
✚ ^^

8.) What color shirt are you wearing?
✚ dark blue

9.) Missing something?
✚ er, ya. he and some tasty snacks(hungry now). ^^

10.) If you could go back in time and change something, what would you do?
✚ treasure the time when i was still with him. =)

11.) If you must be an animal for one day, what?
✚ bird.. so i can fly to shah alam.

12.) Ever had a near death experience?
✚ nearly get hit by a car.

13.) Something you do a lot?
✚ sleep!!!

14.) The song stuck in your head?
✚ i'm yours

15.) Who did you copy and paste this from?
✚ Ellen Lee( my lao po!!!)

16.) Name someone with the same birthday as you?
✚ erm... i forgot her name... my primary school friend's sister.

17.) When was the last time you cried?
✚ march? i forgot.

18.) Have you ever sung in front of a large audience?
✚ nope... too shy. ^^

19.) If you could have one super power what would it be?
✚ time change.

20.) What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
✚ the way they dressed.

21.) What do you usually order from Starbucks?
✚ ice blended mocha w

22.) What's your biggest secret?
✚ I have totally no idea.

23.) Favorite color?
✚ orange and purple

24.) Do you still watch kiddie movies or tv shows?
✚ yes! just finished avatar.. is a good way to destress.

25.) What's on your walls?
✚ my room's wall: narutor posters

26.) What are you?
✚ an eighteen year old girl with lots of crazy ideas. ^^

27.) Do you speak any other language?
✚ Malay, Mandarin, hokkien and Cantonese

28.) What's your favorite smell?
✚ his shirt (hehe.) and smell of food.

29.) Describe your life in one word.
✚ great.

30.) Have you ever kissed in the rain?
✚ not sure. i guess so.

31.) What are you thinking about right now?
✚ finished this tag and find something to eat.

33.) What should you be doing?
✚ finish my holiday homework. =P

34.) Who was the last person that made you upset/angry?
✚ my sister.

35.) How often do u talk to God?
✚not very often. unless i go to temple.

36.) Do you like working in the yard?
✚ *nod nod* i like. should be very fun.

37.) If you could have any last name in the world, what would you want?
✚ just my name.

38.) Do you act differently around the person you like?
✚ nope!! i'm felt most comfortable with him around and with him i'm me.

39.) What is your natural hair color?
✚ black

40.) Who was the last person to make you cry?
✚ my grandfather.

Love, is a silence word....

2009-06-06T21:51:00.003+08:00

i found a guy, that occupied my heart...
cannot say is fully occupied, but he got his way to squeeze into my hearts chamber without my notice....

may be 'cause we only see each other once after few months, every time, when i saw him, is like i fall in love with him again... hard to describe... is something like, you get to know him once more, and fall in love with him once more.... and the feeling get stronger each time....

many people may think, long distance relationship is tiring... you must find some one near you, that you always be with.... but, actually this isn't really true... still, i cant deny that be with someone near you is the best...

how do i put this.... some times i think, charging a hand phone is like a way of maintaining our relationship... you cant charge too much 'cause in the end the battery cant last long.... you have to charge according to the instruction...

once, he told me, we are the battery, when the battery going to be empty, he will come back and charge it... and indeed, i do feel the way he said like that... i don always rely on him in my work or study, but he is my cushion... absorbed my anger and comfort me.... some times i do think i'm the one always bully him....

the old me, always think of only me and so immature and so dependent on people... now i cant say i'm really that independent, or really mature, but one thing for sure, i'm not the old yy...
because of him....

相处

2009-06-06T21:43:00.002+08:00

最不应该的相处，是像咸鱼一样的。
因为越是相见，就会沾上更多的鱼腥味。

最应该防备的相处，是像花朵一样的。
花盛开的时候很喜欢，而一旦谢了就会被丢弃。

最美丽的相处，是像手帕一样的。
在辛苦的时候，为你擦汗；在悲伤的时候，为你擦干眼泪

Minority

2009-04-14T12:40:00.006+08:00

When a problem occur in our daily lives, majority of us will always complain about it for all day long... Eg: Economy crisis has murdered millions of humans' mind and crushed their hopes merciless, and guess what they are going to do about it? yes, you are absolutely right, COMPLAIN ABOUT IT!!!

However, there are minority of the community, can actually achieve a break through of this entire situation... They are the ones who can manage to observe the whole trend of fluctuation and development of the situation... They are the ones who can actually determine the direction firmly and decide which position they want to reach... And they are the ones who can even change the situation (even by little) to suit themselves and aid them in their advances... They are the ones who are called THE MINORITY.

In the cases of economic crisis, millions of people loses millions of money and even their job, their position, their career and etc... But, have you ever think of where has all these millions and millions of money gone? Do them vapourised into the air or just float to the sky and disappear? NO, ABSOLUTELY NOT!! Instead, they are entering into someone else's pocket... And obviously, the "someone else" is the Minorities... They brilliantly manipulate the whole market and create a so-called "crisis" and suck all the money into their bank account... After this crisis, people may only blame the society, the country, the companies and whatnots... However, there is an existence of a group of people which are the "Future Minorities"... They react to this situation, become even more aggressive and proactive in everything they do, show people their ability to solve these problems instead of complaining pointlessly.... And this is the kind of people we should be aiming to become because eventually they will become the minority group if they are given sufficient time....

In the cases of school and studies, students always tend to study, study and study without an absolute aim and direction (especially malaysian students)... They strained their brains, energy and everything they have just to get 1 more marks for their exam results... However, in this situation, there is a minority group of people who did not study much as the others do... What they do, is similar to the case mentioned above -- OBSERVE... They observe the trend of the student community and determine who are the weak ones and who are the strong ones... They breakout the situation and viewed it in a third person view as if they are not involve in it... After they understand how the system works and fully grasp the pattern of the student community, they decide which direction they want to go and how far they want to achieve, and they act fast... Really fast... They adapt, change, and improve... Most of them change themselves to suit into the situation, but some may even change the whole situation to suit them...

But, HOW THEY DO IT??? AND HOW THEY BECOME THE MINORITY??

These kind of people view the whole situation as an enormous empty grassfield, and with lots and lots of people running on it... Most of the people run aimlessly and without direction... Hence, no matter how hard they run, they may end up at their initial point... The minority spend most of their time observing THE WHOLE SITUATION before acting... They jump out of the field, and see which spot is their destination... After that, they head only to one and only direction towards their destination... They can easily control their progress and decide how good they want to be in the sense that being the best is not always the best thing to do... They do not complain about anything, but utilize every single crisis as a great opportunity... Crisis is their motivation...

2009-04-13T20:41:00.000+08:00

u can cry like a baby, bark like a mad dog, curse heaven and hell, but when times come you have to face it and let it go...

Money

2009-04-13T19:50:00.002+08:00

钱能不能买爱情?
钱能不能买健康?
钱能不能买地位?

能!!

现在的社会，即使你是老头子，只要你有钱，20多岁的年轻小姐都会嫁给你。
人人都以5C来作为寻找另一半的基本条件。(credit card, car, career, cash, condominium)
这些条件都以钱息息相关。

再来，人的健康更不用说。
当你建康出现危机，钱可以救你一命。
打个比方说：当你有肾病，你可无需担忧洗肾用的经费，或者用钱还来一颗健康的肾。
虽然很现实，但这就是现今的社会。

最后，地位。
只要有钱，即使是Datuk的封号都能买得到，那更不用说在某公司或在Gxx了。

作者感想：
别人要拼死才能得到的东西，在有钱人的眼里却是十分微小。
我们不能说世界不公平。
在这世界，公平的定义已被扭曲。因为不同人解读公平的意思都不同。

要不逆流而上，要不随着水流方向前进
要不改变环境，要不默默耕耘。

2009-04-12T20:28:00.007+08:00

They told me i was crazy

I dreamt the sky radiated blue

but the doctor had cleared me...

said it was just a case of too much missing you.

Love letter

2009-04-09T21:22:00.008+08:00

It took me some time to know you,

took me lesser time to become your best friend,

took me little time to fall in love wif you....

But...

It took me forever to forget you and take heart back...

So, since its impossible for me to forget you
and retract my heart,

I decide to leave my heart in yours,
and love you with my lifetime :)....

2009-02-09T16:20:00.017+08:00

那天，你问我说：“我有那么多男生好友和我那么熟，你难道不担心吗？”

你笑了笑，

对我说：“我是你的爱人，是你生命的一部分；

而再多的男生只是你生活的一部分。

一字之差，差之千里。

人不会为了生活的一部分而放弃自己的生命，这是本能；

他们虽然代替不了生命，但他们能为生命带来五彩缤纷的生活。

因为有爱，

所以我不想让你只拥有生命，更希望你有过色彩的、有质量的生活。

所以有什么可担心的呢？”

story

2009-01-18T18:47:00.003+08:00

once upon a time, there was a young tiger cub....
he asked his mother :" Mom, where is our love? Love is in which part of our body?"
His mother answered him :" Our love is in our tail."
The tiger then went on and played on his tail, however, no matter how he tried to catch his love in his tail, he cnt reach it...
so, he asked his mother:" Mom, our love is impossible in our tail, bcoz it is impossible for our love in a place that we cnt reach and cnt get. Our love shud surely be in some place in our chest or head so that it is easily reached...."
His mother said:"Dear, it is not like this... You shud walk naturally in ur life, n the love will follow u......."

2009-01-10T21:51:00.003+08:00

很多人的生活方式都被自己的知识和认识所束缚。

这是个被称为现实的东西。

但是知识和认识却是个暧昧的东西。

这所谓的现实也或许只是个幻觉。

人都活在自己深信的东西中。

2009-01-02T23:13:00.004+08:00

天堂和地狱之分

假期是我的天堂。
不是假期的时候大都是我的地狱。

买到多多衣服时感觉就像天堂。
看到别人买到多多美美的衣服时就像地狱。

吃着很好吃的baskin robbin是就很天堂。
当牙痛而不能吃，只能看，超地狱。

和你喜欢的人出去，即使只是喝着泡泡茶，这就是天堂。
和你心爱的人分隔两地，久久见一面，那就是地狱。
但，见面的那一刻，你飞到了天堂。

2008-11-23T18:36:00.003+08:00

当所有人对你的期望变得越大时，
你感受的压力也越来越大。

期望，往往有时就是压力的同义词。

2008-11-23T18:34:00.001+08:00

最重要的，
不是爱上了谁，
而是如何去爱。

2008-11-07T21:07:00.002+08:00

There are 2 doctors in a hospital, doctor A and doctor B.

Doctor A is a very passionate doctor and very eager to save lives. He feels that lives are important and he often thinks that he should do something to play his role as a human. So, he chooses doctor as his career to fulfill his wish to contribute to the society. He is a very caring and kind doctor. He always treats every patient as his friend and gives his 100% to every patient. He is determined to save his patients even if they are dying. At last, he becomes a doctor who spends most of his time rescuing a small number of patients.

Doctor B is a very materialistic and ambitious doctor. Money, fame and power are everything in his mind. He put his aim to become the head of department in the hospital. Hence, he tries his best to improve himself to become a skillful doctor. He does not care about his patients much, does not care about his patients’ lives and deaths and thinks only about his performances. At last, he saves a lot of peoples’ lives because of his superb skill and he become very famous and rich. He also achieves his goal as a head of department in the hospital.

Now, here is the question. Comparatively, who is a good doctor?

Think carefully before you make any choice, first, think of the definition of the word “good” and answer the question based on your understanding.

2008-11-02T16:53:00.002+08:00

the secret to be strong...
is to be occupied, busy..
until u cannot tink of anything...
until u cannot remember...
until u can force a smile on ur face...

2008-10-26T00:13:00.002+08:00

wad is our purpose in life?

2008-10-26T00:03:00.002+08:00

do u blif in reincarnation?
mayb tat u did something bad in tat life causes u to pay all d debts...
or mayb now is the time u enjoy well...

some blif that when one died he/she/it leave a hole in d spiritual well...
tat hole is to b filled by new souls...
juz lyk, when a hunter killed a bird...
d bird leave a hole in d spiritual well...
n tat hole is to b filled by the soul of the hunter...

2008-10-21T21:07:00.004+08:00

我还没做好心理准备...
太快了吧...
没想到才18岁的我，就被邀请去朋友的婚礼....
她也和我同岁....
哇..... 太突然了... 不知怎样回应.....

不过还是要祝福她...
“芳，祝你幸福... 要永远幸福哦~ 希望他对你好好.... 我应该会去你的婚礼的....”

祝有情人终成眷属.... ^^

think before asking question...

2008-10-18T12:07:00.004+08:00

though form 6 is said to be pre-uni...
but is it so?
teachers continue spoon feed us, which most of us think is normal and think tat its the teachers' responsibilities to do so...
obviously, we r blinded by our primary and secondary schooling and we are totally wrong about tat...

have d sixth formers think about tiz b4?
if teacher continues spoon feed us...
how r we going to survive in varsities?
spoon feed means if the teacher din touch on this topic, we will nvr read thru tat topic...
in universities, lecturer will not do this...
dey r not going to tell us, wad is coming out for d exam o how tiz n tat happens...
nor explain everything in detail till we undastand...
nor tell us muz read thru which chap b4 exam coz its important...

we used to being fenced into an area and being told to finish everything INSIDE the fence...
but, this IS schooling life...
this is not wat we r supposed to do in pre-uni life...
wat will happen if we lose our scope?
do we know where we r heading without the guideliness?
can we figure out tat?
as a sixth formers, i doubt it...

if we continues lyk tiz, when r we going to grow up??

besides this, some of us think tat asking other ppl question is d easiest way to undastand wad the topic toking about....
though finding d knowledge ourselves is v troublesome n use up a lot of energy n time.... but, the most important part is not the result we get, its the whole process...
its d journey to d acquisition of knowledge tat counts...
many of us do not wan to tink before they ask bout tat particular question...
many of us take things for granted...
many of us are not making an effort to undastand wad the facts are toking about....
next thing we'll do is asking questions blindly which dey themselves actually knew the answer if they giv it a deep thought bout tat....

so, advice to all, think 1st before asking....